why am i so remote from heaven and her loving embrace? the material plane is a harsh one, no one to love, no where is home, no signs of life beyond the opressive void with chains of gravity everpresent to disallow one from simply flying away, away from...Read More

My last journal entry was written out of frustration and i have come to find hardly any truth in it either, but rather an attempt at pragmatism, which love doesn't follow. yes i have trouble communicating in words, but i should more than make up for i...Read More

I have been here and there looking for a woman for a serious relationship, and found one, but i fell into traps of what i thought women wanted because i wanted to find my soulmate and be who I am around her, but truth is that you can only give yourself...Read More

where am I heading. i was doing so well. i was happy, i felt like i needed nothing else except for the love of a woman, but i am not so sure there is love on that other side anymore. what i feel now is hallow. the door has been shut in my face by someo...Read More

i am enjoying the temporary increase of work hours available at my current job. i find that i cannot do enough in the day when i am working at a fulltime pace, and time seems to pass faster, but then again i do not get out as much and relax should this...Read More

I don't know where I am, but i feel like i have taken a couple of steps back and more forward in another direction entirely. I am starting to think wiser now; well actually starting to think forward more precisely. i have stopped drinking for what seem...Read More

well it's 3:15 am, i can't sleep. i tried to log on to the free chat, but it says "authentication failed". don't know if it's a sign i've been booted, or if an app is failing on me. doesn't really matter right now anyway except that when sleep is lacki...Read More

hello again me. well let's see what i accomplished today. woke up at 3:40 AM, took a shower and walked most of the way to work. nothing much happened out of the ordinary at work. just putting things in their place. the job is not much, but it pays the...Read More

so i did not do much today except go the the dump and left some old military uniforms at the thrift store. i was drinking some shots of everclear with grapefruit juice and beer through out the day and had 4 slices of pizza, which i ate with my brother,...Read More